disgust.

i can't stop being disgusted with myself.

i was made a fool of, again. i specifically said i believed i was making a better choice in my last boyfriend. i was wrong.

very, very, very wrong. i keep trying to be okay with that.

but how can i keep being SO wrong with who i date?? i am starting to lose hope in ever finding someone good and worthwhile.

only bums like me. :( not even like me... more like, want to use me.

they use, and they use, and they use. BUT i am a human being. i am a girl. i have had my heart broken. i have dated an abusive jerk. and the last guy knew this and STILL only thought of himself. i lose hope in people more and more every day. i need to sleep...

and maybe cry.

but i don't want to cry anymore.

i don't want to know me anymore.

i'm a fucking idiot.