Thursday, January 9, 2014


I've somehow become the one always reaching out for "friends" to hang out.




Time to erase and start over. I'm really surrounded by a bunch of fucktards.


I'm tired of being the good friend who is used and walked on. Time to do the walking. It will be invigorating.
Invigorate me captain.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Birthday Girl.

People disappoint me daily. To think I've almost lived in this world for 23 years. Why? People suck. And unless I want to live in a tent in the wilderness with my 3 wolves, I'm going to have to be around people for another 50+ years. I don't like this one bit. Not one bit.

*cheers to gin*

Getting me through the next few days until I cry because I'm old(er) and have nothing to be proud of.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Too Deep...

What business is it of yours what I do, read, buy, see, say, think, who I fuck, what I take into my body - as long as I do not harm another human being on this planet? And that goes for my status on Facebook. Don't like it? Get on over to the delete button. Because I sure as hell don't even like 45% of you. And if you're wondering if you're in that 45% it's probably because you are. And I just keep you around to read your status out loud and laugh about it before I suck my boyfriend's cock.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Divorce and Marriage.

I don't always invest my heart into marriages, but when I do, you damn well better love each other forever.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Too deep...

I know I shouldn't let bullies get to me, but they do.

They do.
They have.
They will.

I fear they always will.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Too deep...

I was supposed to be at your wedding.
You were supposed to be at mine.

I hate you for not sticking around.
I hate me for not sucking up my pride and saying I was sorry for fighting.

Are you having kids soon?
Are you happy?
Do you ever think of me?

We were supposed to tease.strip til the end.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Too deep...

Commitment is so rare these days.

I feel like our generation, and the one before, was raised very badly. Divorce, Break-ups, Families disowning their members, not even fucking bands can stay together.

What is wrong with us?

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Thursday, March 7, 2013

It's Coming.

The year anniversary of me not being killed.
I'm dealing with anxiety sent straight from the darkness of hell.
My therapist said I'd deal with this, which is all just lovely, except for that fact that I've not seen my therapist since being disowned by my family.
I guess it's all up to me to get through this.
And I know I will, but it sucks.

In other news, I'm not doing a very good job of keeping my fingers still online.
Can people really not put their guns down for 3 seconds and insert themselves into the world of common sense?

I'm going bonkers over here.

Sunday, February 10, 2013


I put myself in others pain, it's one of my greatest weaknesses and yet strengths. As I was reading it was as if I was seeing into myself a few years ago. Depression is a real thing, and you can't get through it alone.

 If only you knew you were very far from alone.

I am so very sorry for all that are dealing with her loss.