Heartwrenchingly Honest:

http://marynshope.blogspot.com/


I just discovered this mother's story of her little girl's journey, and it has broken my heart.

I've been so scared of becoming a mother and failing my children, but what happens when "God", "The Universe", or Science fails you both?

I just want to hug this woman and tell her she did everything right.

Artificial Nocturne.

Pursuit of Happiness

Nightmares.

Pretty much, on the daily, I've been plagued by nightmares. I wake up either in panic or wanting to cry. But these nightmares are not like the nightmares many others experience. These nightmares are filled with different versions of real-life experiences I've had with "my family". Those people are always causing so much contention but there is never resolve. And that my friends is just plain sad.

Why is it that they believe me to be "the bad child", the "angry child", the "selfish child"? Yet no one else seems to see me that way. And when I'm not with them, I'm the better version of myself.

I've realized I have no interest in ever seeing anyone of them again.

And that my people, is in a way, a huge weight off my shoulders.

I am only moving forward.

...another realization, it is only when I have really been seeking the love of a father that I've made horrible decisions. Since letting that -badness- go, I've been making much better decisions. What does that say about not only me, but any girl like me?

We live in a really sad world, and if I ever become a mother, I'll do it as close to right as possible. WITH THE RIGHT MAN, that is ready to be a real father, and I'll be a real mother.

Love: one of the most important things in this world. Yet we don't see enough of it.